Thursday, May 19, 2011

Before I brought Oliva in to live with me, I had promised to buy her the things she needed for the birth of her baby. I had been to visit her one day when she was still living in the village with her mom, and Betty had already told me of her needs. Oliva was very worried about not having the supplies that she would need for the birth of her baby. When an expectant mother goes to the hospital to deliver, she must take all necessary supplies that she will or might need while at the hospital  with her, or she will not have them. The hospital and medical facilities do not supply any supplies for labor and delivery. The mother must provide those herself. Oliva knew she could not afford all of the supplies that she would need when her baby was born. She didn’t know what she was going to do, but she kept praying. praying that God would provide.
Her sister, Betty, had told me about her needs and worries about the delivery supplies, and God had already placed it upon my heart to provide her with these items. When I went to the village to visit with Betty and Oliva’s mom, I told Oliva to get me a list of all that she would need and that she would have all those things. She graciously thanked me and gave me a hug. I hugged her back and told her that God was going to provide all of her needs. I later found out from Betty that Oliva had been very polite when thanking me, but had gone back inside the house unable to contain her excitement. She was ecstatic. She began dancing around the house and laughing so hard that her mom told her if she didn’t stop she might hurt the baby. She just kept saying, “Mom, it’s a miracle! It’s a miracle! I didn’t know how I was going to get those things, didn’t know what I was going to do, but God has provided!”

That was before she came to live with us.
The items have not been purchased yet, but as the time is drawing nearer, she has been making the list of all the items she will need. The doctor told her to have them this month, that way she will be ready whenever the baby is born.

This morning she came to me and brought the list:

Cotton: $10.00
String: $2.00
Razors: $1.00
Gloves: $4.00
Syringe/Needles: $2.50
Medicine: $2.50
Plastic Sheet to lay on: $3.50
Basin: $1.50
Soap: $0.75
Sheets: $8.00
Outfits to dress the baby in: $4.00
Blanket: $3.50

I smiled into her face and said, “Yes. We can most definitely get these things.”

These simple things. Necessary items. Items that our hospitals in America usually provide free of charge. She was so worried. Worried about her baby and his birth. Worried about being able to provide for his birth and the items both mother and child will need.

He whispers in my ear: “My God shall supply all my needs.”

And tears fill my eyes.
Shame washes over me.
As my own thoughts that have invaded my mind so many times recently come flooding back in. Thoughts of doubt, uncertainty, and wondering. Questions. Worry. As my sin of daring to think that God might not come through for me floods my mind. My sinful thoughts that He might leave me…that He might not provide.

And I read again…“My God shall supply ALL my needs.”

That I would dare to doubt. Dare to question. Dare to wonder.
About my God. The God of the Universe. My Creator. My Life-Giver. The One who holds each breath I take in His hands.
He promises me…PROMISES ME…that He will supply all of my needs. He will not leave me nor forsake me. He will not abandon me.

And so I can stare into Olivia’s eyes and say, “Our God shall supply all of our needs. Our God SHALL Supply ALL of our needs! He will! He promises! And we can hold Him to it.”

He knows Olivia’s needs. He knows my needs. He knows our needs.
ALL of them. Before I even know they are needs. Before we ca even utter the words to ask. Whether they be physical items such as diapers, cotton, string, and clothes; or emotional needs such as comfort, strength, wisdom, and encouragement; or spiritual needs - any need of any sort.  
He knows. And I believe that He already has a plan in motion to meet our needs by the time we know them and begin praying…He shall supply. He shall supply.

“But my God shall supply all your needs according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:19

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